Allah Maha Baik

menginjak semester tua alias semester 7 emang masa-masa ingin menikah. hmm kata siapa?
menurut saya, ini adalah masa paling sensitif dimana kadang males berteman atau hang out bareng temen2 dan males direpotin tentang tugas. ditambah skripsi, ditambah target ingin lulus kapan, ditambah dosbing bermasalah.. waw!
mungkin banyak orang yang berfikiran kalo hal kayak gini adalah egois, but i wont care.. karena setiap orang mempunyai target lulus masing2 dan keadaan keluarga yang berbeda-beda.
rasanya setiap hari ingin bertemu orang tua dan menceritakan semua yang telah terjadi pada hari itu sambil menaruh kepala dipangkuan ibu dan bapak. karena yang paling dibutuhkan sekarang adalah orang tua. saat berfikir bahwa tak perlu bercerita kepada orang lain termasuk sahabat, hanya orang tua lah tempat berlari dan selalu mau menerima.
yaaa kadang iri liat temen2 yang dapet pembimbing baik, tapi tak apalah..semua itu ambil hikmahnya aja..
barangkali kalau saya dapet pembimbing yang super baik, mungkin saya juga terlalu santai.bagaimanapun Allah itu maha baik,
                                           
DIA selalu menempatkan keadaan umatnya ke posisi yang tepat, meski sering protes, meski sering merasa tak ada lagi jalan keluar ketika menghadapi rintangan, tapi selalu percaya bahwa DIA akan selalu memberi jalan kepada umatnya yang sedang kesusahan.
 “The more you pray, the less you'll panic. The more you worship, the less you worry. You'll feel more patient and less pressured.”  -Rick Warren-
  

please be my boy for final test, my essay !

IRONY OF WILLY LOMAN’S LIFE REFLECTED ON THE ARTHUR MILLER’S THE DEATH OF THE SALESMAN : PSYCOLOGICAL APPROACH

In literary work, the dream is the representation of the conflict and suspense occur in daily life that also influenced by a person’s behavior (Eagleton, 1996:437). It can be said that the dream appears because of there is certain encouragement to do something. There is a hope and a desire that usually comes from someone’s experience or someone’s condition. When a person has a dream or a desire to achieve something in his/her life, then he/she will tries hard, will be motivated, and supported to achieve certain satisfaction. There are two types of Dreams, they are a dream that can be achieved by anyone, whereas it will give satisfaction to someone. Then, a dream that is difficult to be achieved by someone whereas the effect of a

dream that cannot be achieved by a person, it will have an impact on the disappointment and anxiety which will cause hallucinations. Based on the Wikipedia, Hallucination is a perception in the conscious situation without any real stimulation of the senses. As an example, when there was a person experienced impaired vision where he/she looks an object but the other cannot catch the same object.

A Drama entitled The Death of Salesman written by Arthur Miller is a phenomenon of American Drama, published in 1949. The research concerns on psychological analysis of internal conflict through to Willy as the main character. This analyze to be analyzed by psychological approach of theory of dream by Sigmund Freud.

In the psychological literature, literature is an expression of the soul through language where literature cannot be separated from the psychological or psychiatric aspects of a person that raged in the literature (Suwardi, 2008:86). It can be explained that literature concerns on the human life which is closely related to personality conditions. Someone’s personality is shown to identify personal character and also person’s psychological condition. It is influenced by someone’s experiences. Sigmund Freud stated that person’s psychological condition due to mental imbalance and also the presence of an inner conflict will lead to stress or depression. It occurs because of an error in the emotional adjustment problems where the problems itself resulted in anxiety because of a conflict that cannot be solved. Likewise, it’s the same thing when a person has a desire in his life where the desire is actually results in failures that make a person lives in anxiety. It is a cause of hallucination happened to someone, in which hallucination is a symptom in patients with mental disorder in which a person is in a conscious state without any real stimulation of the senses (http://wikipedia.com). According Sigmund Freud based on the Psychology of Literature book titled “Karya Sastra, Metode, Teori, dan Contoh Kasus by Albertine Minderop”. In this theory is explained that Dreams is someone’s ambition to reach something that he/she expected in life. Freud links literature with dreams. Literature and Dreams is considered to give satisfaction indirectly. Dream as a text that pointing at something different through symbols itself. Freud also states that there are specific equation between dream and unhealthy state. For instance, that is severe psychosis hallucinations. Hallucinations arise because of a desire that cannot be realized. Freud was convinced that this condition also occurs in dreams (Eagleton, 1996:437).

Willy Loman is the main character and protagonist of the play. He has been a traveling salesman, the lowest of positions, for the Wagner Company for thirty-four years. Never very successful in sales, Willy has earned a meager income and owns little. His refrigerator, his car, and his house are all old - used up and falling apart, much like Willy. Willy, however, is unable to face the truth about himself. He kids himself into believing that he is well liked by his customers in the New England territory and by the company, who is sure to give him a promotion or opportunity to make more income.

Willy's dream is to become like Dave Singleman, who was very popular with his clients and able to do business by just making phone calls. Because he was so well liked, when Singleman died, customers from all over his region came to his funeral. Willy dares to believe that his funeral will be similar to Singleman’s. Ironically, when Willy commits suicide, almost no one attends the funeral, proving the error of his philosophies. Throughout his life, Willy believed that if one was attractive and well liked, everything would be perfect. The doors would automatically open for such a man, and he was sure to be successful.

In order to believe that he and his family are successes, Willy lies to himself and lives in a world of illusions. He says of himself that he is well liked in all the towns he visits and by all the customers that he calls on; he also erroneously believes that he is vital to the New England territory and will some day receive a promotion for his hard work. He even lies to himself, and then his boss, about how much he actually earns. Because he wants to prove to himself that he is well liked, Willy has at least one affair, attracting the young woman by offering to purchase her a pair of silk stockings. When Biff discovers his father in the hotel room with the woman, he recognizes Willy for what he is and calls him a liar and a fake.

Willy also lives in a world of illusions about his two sons. He is convinced that Happy is a content, successful young man who will soon become a store manager. In truth, Happy is a loser, like his father, who lives in his own world of illusions and contributes to keeping Willy in his fantasies. Although he has his own apartment and car and claims to have relationships with women, Happy admits that he is lonely and unhappy, with no clue of how to rise above the unhappiness. Willy is even more naïve about Biff. Since he is the more attractive son who has been a successful athlete in high school, Willy has placed most of his dreams in this older son. Biff, however, fails miserably. He flunks math and cannot continue his education. He is a compulsive thief, who has lost every job because of his stealing. Biff even admits he is a “nothing,” a total failure. Willy refuses to see the truth about Biff, even when the son tries to tell him. In fact, Willy commits suicide so that Biff will have his life insurance money. He is certain that Biff can make something of himself with twenty thousand dollars.

Willy Loman is a tragic figure who is largely to blame for his own downfall. He is fired from the Wagner Company because he is no longer effective and gets angry with and lies to the boss. He misjudges his sons and fails to accept the truth about either of them. He even puts his wife Linda into the position where she is totally dependent on him; in order, to protect herself and her family, she supports Willy’s illusions, even telling him that he is a good provider. Because Willy has an incorrigible inability to tell the truth, even to himself, and an unreasonable mode of thinking, he justifies his death by saying that his sacrifice will save his sons, particularly Biff; the insurance money they collect will be a tangible remembrance of Willy. The people at the funeral, who Willy is sure will be in attendance, will prove to his sons that he was respected and well liked. It is obvious that even until the last moments of his life, Willy lives a lie.

The one redeeming quality in Willy Loman is his love for his family, particularly for his unworthy son, Biff. Even when Biff forces his father to face reality, Willy is unable to accept the truth as presented to him by his elder son. Instead, he chooses to commit suicide, believing it will give Biff a better chance to succeed in life. In his mind, Willy is making the ultimate sacrifice for his family when he kills himself. Therefore, Willy, in his own mind, dies as a father and husband, not as a salesman as Miller indicates in the title of the play.

Dear me

jangan minta dibahagiakan,
jadilah pribadi yang ingin membahagiakan orang lain !!!

selamanya kerinduan

jangan memikirkan tentang akhir hubungan kita
lebih baik kita melihat ke dalam mata masing-masing dan tertawa bersama
mari kita hidup seperti itu, OK?
begitu lebih baik...

-selamanya kerinduan-

Topeng nan Anggun

Wanita memang hebat, mereka bisa tampak sangat tegar meskipun hatinya sakit.

Mereka tetap bisa bersikap ramah dengan orang yang telah melukai hatinya

Mereka bisa menahan emosi, kecewa, dengan hal yang terjadi dalam dirinya

Mereka bisa berpura pura bahagia melihat orang yang dicintai mencintai orang lain

Sesungguhnya mereka berteman dengan kesedihan

Namun mereka diam, bertawakal dalam doa

Mereka tetap sadar,

Bahwa hidup adalah rentetan ucapan rasa syukur kepada yang kuasa, dari waktu ke waktu..

Meski seringkali pahit

Tapi hidup, terlalu singkat untuk larut dalam ketidakbahagiaan

Untukmu laki-laki, jaga hati wanita..

Jika kamu mampu menjaga hati sesama lelaki, mengapa kamu tak bisa menjaga hati wanita yang mudah sekali rapuh..

                                                                                                            Oktober, 2014

karena jalan menuju surga itu tidak mudah

Kehidupan memang tak selalu seperti yang kita inginkan. Banyak hal-hal yang tidak kita inginkan sering terjadi. Sering kali kita marah dengan keadaan, sering kali kita menyalahkan Tuhan. Merasa bosan itu pasti, merasa ingin menyerah.....hmm

Mungkin kita kesal, mungkin kita menangis dengan jalan hidup yang sudah ditentukan oleh Allah..

Protes..

Protes mengapa jalan hidup yang sudah kita lalui tidak sama dengan orang-orang. Mereka merasa bahagia, hidup yang dijalani enjoy seperti tidak punya beban.

Mereka bebas menjadi seorang egois,  yang menjalani hidup sesuka hati tanpa memikirkan kehidupan orang lain yang butuh bantuan.

Iri..

Terkadang di dalam hati ingin sekali seperti mereka. Seperti tak punya beban, lantang menolak kepada mereka yang butuh bantuan..

Lelah..

Ingin pergi ke tempat yang sangat jauh meninggalkan kehidupan untuk sementara. Menemukan tempat yang tenang, menghirup udara dengan sangat nyaman, menghela nafas pelan...pelan

Dimana tidak ada yang menggangu, dimana tidak ada yang mengusik, dimana tidak ada yang men judge hanya berdasarkan apa yang mereka lihat. Dimana bisa melakukan hal sesuai keinginan hati dan tidak ada yang bisa mencegah bahkan menggagalkan apa yang akan kita kerjakan.

Namun hidup tidak akan mungkin seindah apa yang dapat dikhayalkan, setiap orang mempunyai porsi masalah atau halangan yang berbeda-beda. Mereka yang sembarangan menjalani hidup, justru merekalah  yang hidupnya santai..

Mereka yang mencoba ikhlas, yang pasrah, yang rela berkorban.. merekalah yang mendapatkan reward berupa masalah, rintangan yang cukup sulit dari Allah..

Karena Allah sayang..

Dan karena jalan menuju surga itu tidak mudah..

Hallo Sahabat, I love you

Membicarakan tentang sahabat bakal  ngga ada ujungnya.. semua dilakukan dengan tulus dari hal terkecil bahkan sampai hal yang sangat membosankan. Dari sekolah sampai…ngga ada akhirnya. Semua cerita, kenangan, akan terus menjadi bahan obrolan ketika bertemu. Namun persahabatan tak selamanya berjalan harmonis seperti kartun-kartun di tv. Konflik pasti ada, dari yang sepele dibesar-besarkan.. hal yang biasa saja menjadi salah paham. Susah-susah gampang untuk menjaga persahabatan, apalagi kalo sudah masuk ke ranah yang namanya CINTA.  Bisa jadi mencintai orang yang sama.. bisa jadi seseorang mencintai  seorang yang sahabatnya sudah lama ada rasa sama seseorang tersebut. Oohhh ironi..haha. Karena hal tersebut sudah biasa terjadi dalam persahabat dimanapun

Lalu siapa yang pantas disalahkan pabila ada kejadian tersebut? To the point.. salahkan yang masuk :)

Jika memang dia merasa dewasa, tak seharusnya dia mencoba merusak persahabatan tersebut. Jangan membenci sahabatmu, jangan.. karena sahabat akan menjaga perasaanmu sampai kapanpun..bukankah  dalam  persahabatan selalu ada janji untuk bersama selamanya meskipun telah berkeluarga nanti?

Aku menyayangi sahabat-sahabatku seperti saudara perempuanku sendiri, meskipun sering sedih karena jarang ikut kumpul..tapi di dalam hati terdalam..selalu kupanjatkan doa semoga kita selalu bersama..sampai akhirnya kita berkarir, menikah..berkumpul dengan keluarga kita masing2..

Banyak hal yang selalu dirindukan mulai dari hal konyol. Cerita SMA, kenangan manis pahit,,menjengkelkan semua komplit..

Persahabatan yang tak pernah terpecahkan meskipun masalah memang tak pernah lepas,

Persahabatan yang selalu tertawa riang…

Persahabatan yang mau menerima kesalahan dan kekurangan masing2..

Persahabatan yang tetap kompak..

Persahabatan yang selalu mau mengingatkan satu sama lain..

Persahabatan yang tak pernah melukai satu sama lain..

Teruntuk sahabat-sahabatku caca, mbak shinta, gemuk.. aku tak pernah lupa merindukan kalian, mendoakan kalian.. selalu ingin memeluk kalian setiap kali aku punya masalah..i miss you much..